I have a hard time saying 'no'.

A few weeks ago, I realized that I have a hard time saying 'no', because I hate hearing 'no'.

It seems like we open ourselves up more when we say 'yes'. So it makes sense to me to accept and embrace whatever happens, even if I don't like it. But I can't control what others do or say.

'Yes', feels more like giving opportunities.. and just overall effort, or just plain willingness.

My brain exploded. I had so much thought going on at the same time and now I'm drawing a blank.

I'm sure I'll come back to this another time.

For now, YES.

Yoga influence

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QFvu-0Wf7Gw

Gosh, this video really touched me.

Baron Baptiste is Nikki Wong's first teacher. (My teacher's teacher.) And he is an absolute inspiration.

Sunday, April 14

I taught my first yoga class on Sunday.

Oh, wow. What an incredible experience.

The energy in the classroom was so amazing. Never, have I felt so connected with people in a group environment. The way they flowed from pose to pose, their breathwork, everything about each individual was so beautiful.

The only word I could use to describe that 75 minute class, is grateful.

I felt so overwhelmed with gratitude to each person that was there, the whole experience was on another level.

I can't wait to teach again soon. I know the next class won't be the same, it won't be comparable ever. And each class will be a different experience, with different energy. But man, it is something I'm looking forward to.

May 12, 2013 -- I'll be teaching at 4pm at Yoga Inside Out, in Cupertino. The class is donation based ($5-$20 recommended). The money goes to a charity of Nikki's choice for the whole month.

Swype typoes

I prefer not to use swype because it requires one hand and I type with both. But every once in a while, I do use it.

Today, I was swyping to my friend "I love cole slaw" -- and swype spit out "I love child abuse".

HM. I'm so glad I read the text before I hit send. So check it out.

 

 

 

 Oh, the letters that get in the way of spelling what we mean to spell. Crazy!

Also, I was swyping a little fast so I suppose I could have slipped a finger past a letter or something... I've typoed using swype many-a-times, but rarely do two typoes (one right after the other), marry so well together.

 

 

Days

Today, I feel triumphant.

First, I thought it was Friday, then Tuesday, but it's actually Monday. I've been having more of those days when I think it's another day. I'm taking it as a victory.

Because I'm present, and focused on each passing moment, I'm not noticing the insignificance of days. I'm not looking forward to the weekend, or dreading the Mondays.

Days are man-made.

We feel like Fridays are good because it's the start of the weekend, which we'll have incredible plans to live life. But, I've been living life every single day and celebrating each moment as they come instead of categorizing "good" and "bad" events that happen on certain days, therefore categorizing the days as "good" and "bad.

That probably made no sense to anyone else, but me. Fuck yeah.

And I'm back.

I need to draw something.

Writing, sharing and blockages

I've fallen back into the frustration of wanting to share my thoughts and experiences, but finding it difficult to explain. I feel like I'm solidfying something that shouldn't be solidified.

I caught myself typing something out, thinking it over, deciding that it didn't sound right, and then deleting it.

Damn, I thought I was over that issue.

That just proves that nothing is permanent. I need to take every experience and let it go when it passes. Celebrate the victory and acknowledge that, just as it came, it will pass.

Each challenge is a new one, even if it's a reoccuring one. Don't get frustrated that it's back. Just work it out, and it will become another challenge to overcome.

Be present. Don't think of the past, or the future.