On defense

I was sharing my recent experiences with an aquaintice, and explaining the small-big changes I'm making in my life to help stay focused. And their immediate reaction was "well I can't do that because (blank)".

I wonder why people get the impression that I'm telling them that they should do the same thing as me, when I'm only sharing myself and my experiences with them. So naturally, I think "wow, did I give them the impression that I think I'm better than them? Or that I'm suddenly an expert in life?" -- Far from my intention.

I am no expert. I'm just trying something different to see what would happen cause, obviously, what I was doing wasn't getting me results.

I try to catch myself if I do this, and analyze what I was thinking when I was listening to the other person share. I found that, the instances when I defend myself are times that I'm not truly listening. I'm listening to their words with my head, but I'm not listening with my heart.

I'm going to stop defending myself. I don't have to justify anything anymore. I don't report to anyone.

You hear people say in yoga "be present"... "be in the moment"... "be right here, on your mat". Those are the only times I feel real, pure happiness without a cause. It comes and goes... But I savor those moments the most.

And life is, fantastic.